Letter From A Jamaican

Who would had thought that stretching my relaxer for six months would have allowed the thoughts of going natural to surface within this mind. Even relaxed I loved to see natural hair, waves, poofs, kinks and curls were amazing to me. The last time you were here I was pondering the thought, well its almost been a year since my last relaxer and let me tell you I've hear the good and the bad. One regular question is, "When are you going to cream (relax) your hair?" or comments like "If you cream your hair it would be soooo long!" 

Ok, let's take a few steps back.

So before this whole journey I was about grazing APL. I saw some videos online just browsing youtube and came upon some videos of women with long hair. I tried mimicking a few things that they did, I saw some length but failed to realize the health deteriorating. I hated how this "journey" destroyed my hair. I had it in mind to stretch for 4 months only made it to 15wks and some days. After relaxing, my hair was a mess, my once BIG, I mean BIG, bouncy hair was messed up. I suffered from splits that traveled up the cuticle and breakage. It didn't look right let down so I wore mostly buns to hide it and gradually trimming away those fragile ends. I saw a video about no trims to retain length and THAT was what damaged my hair.  

I enjoy the thickness it has these days, and I'm doing my own hair. Before, putting my hair into a style would be an epic fail, but the secret is to let God lead your hands. Seriously, I do my best always to pray before I do a style, then I do my happy dance when I'm through. I've gotten some crazy experiences mainly at school. I've been observing the environment lately and everyone just looks the same with their straight hair. Everyone wears the same basic style, either it's a ponytail, bun, all down, half up half down etc... So predictable. ( I love relaxed hair though).

The other day this girl (who if I can say used to be natural but relaxed a few months ago) told me that my hair needs sorting out. I simply told her ok. Everyone's making a big fuss over MY hair, either way I'm the one living with it so I don't see the big deal. I've gained a fascination for locs (well to be honest I've always secretly love them),one of my classmates thinks I should get them but I like my hair loose. 

Who knows what the future holds though?

I'll be seeing you soon, one day, one day. I just hope you'll be ready when I Am.

Your friend,

Blue_Grrl